I messed up: Working in my own strength!

Confession time….

Good day people

Today I’m going to cut to the chase, and share a personal embarrassing moment with you all

My sin (mistake) was not trusting that God would take care of me! Yes I sinned against God, and I felt ashamed of myself, and I take full responsibility for my brief moment of foolishness (distrusting God’s timing).

Psalm 78:19-22 ~ “They even spoke against God himself, saying, “God can’t give us food in the wilderness. Yes, he can strike a rock so water gushes out, but he can’t give his people bread and meat.” When the Lord heard them, he was furious. The fire of his wrath burned against Jacob. Yes, his anger rose against Israel, for they did not believe God or trust him to care for them.”

So I managed to get into contact with a male who I’d not contacted in many years. He was very friendly at our first meeting, but never managed to meet again. I wondered if he’d settled down yet, and thought well I’ll never know unless I ask, as I always get told ‘you need to be proactive in putting yourself out there’. So I got an acquaintance to call with me as I felt shy/nervous. To cut a long story short after a brief catch-up, I was able to gather that he was hitched. At that moment I knew I should have just left things in God’s hands instead of trying to take control. I erased/blocked the number from my phone (a beneficial decision for ME), and prayed that God would bless his union.

My choice wasn’t a wise one, it was pretty childish to say the least. I tried to do things in my own strength. I tried to sort out my own life, by doing what I thought was right! I tried to unsingle myself faster than God’s intended plan for my life. I know that God forgave me instantly, and completely at the confession of my sin of doubt (lack of faith), but I also feel much lighter sharing my experience with others. I hope that you can learn from my mistake. I do believe that being open and releasing my feelings concerning this matter, brings an element of healing for me.

There are two major points I’d like for you to take hold of today…

1. Trust that God will take care of you.

Matthew 6:26 ~ Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are?

2. Believe that when you confess your sins God will forgive you instantly! God doesn’t make you suffer a little while before He forgives you. He doesn’t make you wait before He forgives you. (You don’t have to beg for forgiveness, God isn’t a mean/unjust god).

1 John 1:9 ~ “But if we confess our sins to him, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all wickedness.”

I pray that God will give us ALL the grace to wait upon His PERFECT timing.

Psalm 27:14 ~ “Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the Lord.”

God bless and thanks for your engagement and support 🤗

Love from

Christina Lady After God’s Own Heart